so yesterday one of the company heads dropped the bomb that our Cerritos location ( my office ) will be closing by November of next year. So basically my clock has started the countdown of when i’ll be laidoff. i had a feeling it was coming, but having 2 little babies of course i had to have hope that the inevitable was actually NOT going to happen, not while i was working here at least. but nothing stays gold right? The door has been opened for me. with having 2 kids i have to make the decision of what i do next. during the meeting yesterday bossman gave us a couple of options…1) if we stick it through until we laidoff they will offer a very generous severence package… 2) we can move to one of the other locations (rancho cordova CA; alpharetta GA; mechanicsburg PA) they will have a position for us. no need to re-apply if we want to move we can move “hassle free”. i’m going to stick it through. i’m just going to prepare myself for the lay off. pack my stuff and leave it in a box.
so now that i know that sooner than later i’ll be out of a job… what do i do next? although everything that is going on around me is unfortunate i still have to look at the silver lining. this could be my chance to finally do something that i love to do, rather than something that gets me by. i’m going on 5 years working here and the mundane has gotten the best of me. some days are better than other days, but it’s not the same anymore. day in day out it’s the same. but now i have the opportunity where i can make that right decision to put myself and my family in a better position.
so i’m going to look at my options… every option. whether it’s going back to school, opening up mmmMelt (for those who know), or doing childcare…. whatever the decision is, i only ask for my family and friends to support me.
back to the start line… *sigh* looks like it’s going to be a looong race.
“See me, want me, give me, touch me, Feed me, fuck me, love me, trust me
This whole world is cold and ugly; What we are is low and lovely… let me be your favorite nightmare; close your eyes and i’ll be right there.”—boogie man // mos def